An all caps post.

I just got the COOLEST set book EVER.  It's for my Food Management course.  I am so freaking excited about this class that I was literally shaking while reading my set book.  There is the online programme incorporated with the book and you can invent your own recipes!  It's so amazing.  I want to sign up RIGHT NOW.  The book has pages and pages of recipes for all sorts of different things as well as history of famous chefs and their impact on cookery.  I've never wanted to read a course book cover to cover before in my life before this.  Needless to say, this is definitely one book that Varsity bookstore won't be getting back at the end of the semester.  

Alas, I have to wait six more days until I can actually go to the class though.  Typical.  I can't wait.  I've never wanted summer to end and classes to start so badly before.  I'm kind of wondering what's wrong with me.  I really hope I do alright in this class.  I'm starting to get afraid that everyone is going to be really ahead of me and that I'll have a long way to catch up.  I hope not.  I'm planning to work hard at it anyway.  This is something I really enjoy and I really hope I don't screw it up.  Honestly, I can't think of anything else I would rather be.  Wow, I'm going to feel really stupid if my career choice does actually change.  I don't think it will though and I really hope it doesn't.  It's either this or the swim school.  I. Do. Not. Want. To. Work. At. The. Swim. School.  Despite how much the rest of my family, and especially my father might want me to.  It's like he's a spider and the rest of us are flys.  He keeps trying to descretely (or not so much in his case) lure us into the web that is the family business and wrap us up tight and keep us there.  I don't want to be a fly in that web.  No thanks.  

I love getting excited about cooking though.  Cause then I actually believe that I might be successful and get to do what I want to do and go to the places I want to go.  And write in run-on sentences apparently.  I still claim that I'm undecided when asked what I want to do.  It's a need to know basis and not everyone really needs to know.  I think I'm just afraid that if I do tell them and then fail later on that they might think yeah, I saw that coming.  Why do I think so badly about people?  That's so weird.  I love people, but I'm also terrified of them.  Strange.  

I think I'm going to skip Arrested Development tonight and learn how to mentally convert ingredients into the metric system. 

Current song: 

Down by Jay Sean.  I think Lil Wayne gets really excited about the fact that he sings about the economy.  That line doesn't really fit with the rest of his part of the song, but I can imagine him feeling really smart and getting excited about the fact that he mentioned current affairs. Hahaha.  Silly rappers.